From the Smile that remained with her to thinking about her.
She is tranquility, indelible. She once described life as something beautiful and messy, saying that it never goes according to plan. I said it was true.
It was good when I don't had a talk with her. But when there is a talk I indelibrately expressing myself don't know why because they had talked.
But I know where it will be leads to. But Due to No Self Control of Mind, I use to think a lot about Her.
On someday, When they asked Why you are getting me the Chocolate??
Do I have a answer, Yes I want to make friendship with her. But I couldn't explain myself to her correctly.
And The way of texting in every message the reply from them was Simply OKAY !! THANKYOU. I knew they are Normal but It felt to me like Harsh and they are Not interested in me to talk-ida.
But due to the promise which I given, I explains to myself. It's not your problem. Fullfill Your Duty in helping her.
So, i fulfilled it. But What I wish was some friends which I couldn't Make to myself Always. The reason why I couldn't make it was Not able to Communicate easier, making more emotional to myself and .......
From the point of view of them, I should say they may have many issues and I may misunderstood them. I was not pointing out the character. It's about Sometimes, something will matter.
But she had magic in her hands she designs very accurate and they were nice.
I don't feel bad for someone thinking, because i written this here to say something to Myself.
26-10-26. 13:45
I don't know why she was sad. She was in fought with some other in the call. I didn't know who it was. I am not bothered about that.
I would like to stop thinking about her. I know it was hard, but I am trying like i don't know her.
I always think why was I connected to her. It's not about past, it's about present which I was stating to it.
When I says to myself that why I was connected to her, I says like this Some connections in the life don't need an explanation, they always teach something.
In this scenario, It says to me that " Try to get detach from everything" so that you can free your mind from Emotions. The more you think about her the more you will be self broken to yourself.
So I should say don't get emotional when they are not with you. Because the truth is They are Not With you Always.
From Moving on myself, It's my first try to forget her. I know it was hard but I says that "Don't forget Yourself On Your Past" What I mean is, I experienced many things like this like,
Say, the closest friends whom you are assumed to be with you now in college days are not there with you.
And other most is the things you didn't have more involvement is made you weaker in that days. Still Misery to myself Why I was like that in those days.
Sometimes you should say, in you are not to be beloved, you are not ready for attachment because you can't take the detachment. And You should say to you, Before caring for others care for you. Because no one is with you to be cared.
That's the thing for today, I hope I will not remember her anymore.
Anything left to her remaining is , a small guesture of Thank you.
